My Birthday

birthdays for me always end up so bad...i dunno if i look forward to it so much that its such a let down or if things happen on my brithday to make it not seem like a birthday or if people in my family dont do anything for me..lots of stuff goes through my mind..i rarely ever have a GREAT birthday!
Last year on my birthday i found out that i am going to miscarry and of course it had to happen on my birthday...so now i always remember that day when the doctor called me and i cried on mollys shoulder for an hour or so...ill never forget it and it HAD to happen on my brithday! this year i was really struggling b/c i did not want to do ANYTHING for my birthday..i didnt talk about my birthday and when people asked me what i wanted to do..MOLLY! JESS! i siad NOTHING! i dont wanna do anything..i dont want to celebrate it at all! I felt i just had to deal with my misscarriage AGAIN..and i didnt wanna celebrate when i was feeling all sad..

BUT BUT BUT! my birthday turned out to be really great! At school one of my kids got me flower and cupcakes..my co workers sang to me..Debbie for i work with got DD and fruit salad and an awesome gift! Beth got me Starbucks..i mean who would have thought. i sure didnt..i thought i would squeeze by and no one would say anything b/c thats what i really wanted! But i felt so special....
I then went to my parents house and watched some yankees with them..they got me a trip to disney with my husband and two friends and there daughter! it was awesome!!!! im so excited!
then got home and jess had tons of surrpises for me and then lunch at the cheesecake factory! it was amazing!
then Molly had planned dinner for me and at her place and then we were suppose to watch glee..(but with eli working so late it didnt work out =( but we are gunna try again real soon)
so then at 10pm we all(eli,gabe,jess,and sarah) went out to canterbury ales in huntington village and it was YUMMY!!! when we got home Larry was there and had a cake for me! it was so sweet of them to do all this stuff!
then GLEE!! it was a great show...

thanks everyone for making my birthday so great! when i thought it was gunna SUCK! LOVE TO YOU ALL!!
and everyone who gave me cards and gifts!!!! thanks!!